ok its 0ne 12 am and im up thinking about this dude I don't know why im so in to him I know he is not the right guy for me and I think for that reason alone I want him so bad!!! I don't need to go there with this guy so you know NOW nothin is going to happen i don't know whats up with me I sleep all day and up all night im stressed out for what reason I have no idea  All these guys are on ma bumper but I don't wanna have anything to do with them I guess I want what I want and thats that you know OMgoodness whats up with me my head is killing me and I cant type right I know I have to get over this dude but if I do that.... will I just be lying to myself  will I be denying MYSELF  what I really want do I even need him?!?! I know I cant be with him not only the fact he is in love with someone else but I know that he is not ri for me There so meny things in my life that i went to do and I only see him playing to part of a friend but the attaction is crazy and it mix me all up and makes me forget about my needs and just went!!! I don't know what im on ri now I cant  be tripping over someone who not tripping over me thats a sign ri there to get over it im done!!! who cares ?!?! not me?!?!?